Bad spring

    I hate this spring.Although its really beautiful and all kinds of flowers are booming,I have no feeling at all.
    Don't ask me the reason because I dont's know why.
    The TOPIK should be over soon.I couldn't stand for it any longer.It's too difficult!!!!!!!!!!!Why do I have to learn these useless grammar even Korean can't understand,and they all look same,but they tell you it's different without any reason.
     I wanna have a boyfriend.Everyone ask me the reason why I choose women's university.I always tell them that I wanna stay in Seoul.It was never occured in my mind that it't really difficult to get to know a boy unless someone introduce me in a meeting....I don't like secret crash,but,I'm in it ,again!I enjoy this feeling and hate it at the same time.The excited heartbeat, endless imagination,and the concept that we will never get together......Am I sick?
     I will go back at the end of July.I don't want to go home.........It's happy in Seoul and I got to know a lot of people this semester ..don't wanna say goodbye to them....
     I know that this blog would be in a mass.Today is the worst day this week.I got the feeling of my secret crush last Saturday and I wanna get out of it.
     what
     should
      I
      do !??????



in a bad day and a bad mood.....